Psuedohappiness

When i wento to market market i was ammazed by this neon lights of x-mass decor at the center of the mall. while my friend is busy purchasing his new cellphone, i decided to stay in the area where i can view the intire columnar pillars of the mall. I set my eyes to these decorations... it brings happiness to my heart.

But i just sudden happiness .... after the mall hours the lights will be shut off because there are no more people that will be viewing the lights.

Sometimes i can compare my self to this... i am happy for the short period of time.. happiness PSUEDOHAPPINESS

TIRED

I am tired...
tired of everything that is happening to my life.
i am not happy.I feel i am empty.. working for nothing doing for nothing because i am useless.

I am chained by self...
I want to be free..
But when?
When the time has passed away

This is the moment that i hate most.
Moments that i want to forget everything
and go to a certain place that somebody will comfort me.
Somebody that could ease the pain that my heart cannot endure just for a minute..
and let me feel that everything will be ok and turns into normal.

At present i am in the mid's of happy people i wish i could put my self in them and forget everything the dark moments of my life. But Why.. I am trying but its too difficult to be merge in their happiness.. ( Playing price TAG). The level of happiness they have right now is unfathomable shallow happiness. Difficult to put into.. but too simple to do.

I wish no more sadness but when.

SAD

This morning a feel so sad,

Sad of the discision that i made,

Sad of the of the endings that i created

But I have to be stong

To end up the chapter

of the ordinary book

that the world could not be understand

My life is succulent with so many problems

I cannot even bare the heavy load that i have now.

"If you want Not to be Hurt do not Expect Too MUCH"

My heart was transgress by your statement.I am guilty because sometimes i usually expect something in return.

It is almost nine months .. nine months of friendship, happiness,....AND TRUST, .

Friendship that started in unexpected situations of bottom line of my weakness. But God use that situation to metamorphose into a good propose. The time when i posted in my Facebook wall my feelings of regrets of happened to us i felt so so sorry. Sorry because that builds a wall between us. I could not even look to your face and the same way with you. The moment you passed by with me my heart is trembling with feeling that i could not explain.When you replied back to my post and sent me an SMS a heterogeneous feelings burst up in my heart. At that time I was on board going to Cavite. I keep on thinking what i will reply to you. Still you initiated to opened up what was happened us and used that as the center of our talk. We agreed that we will start as if nothing was happened. This is the time when i started to build my trust to you.

That friendship brought happiness in my life.

Happiness because

.... you are always the one that breaks a glass when i am in silent

.....you can make me smile when i am sad

.... you made me feel that i am your brother

....you made me feel that i am special friend

.... we have the same wavelength in w hen it comes to philosophical point of view of life.

I keep on telling you that i am a simple person that can be happy with a simple things...It is not Only a simple things you made and change my life but my life become extra Ordinary. 

"Good is God he knows everything about me.

 I do believe that God has a propose why i met you". 

My happiness is unfathomable i do not want to express is to much to you because the environment put an issue about it. But still you are there to conditioned my self and be able to adjust on the issues that our friendship going through..And i am happy that we've done to it.

You became a great influence to my life. from lifestyle, habit, attituted, values and socialization and even how to manage problems.

As the time goes by the trust that planted in my heart become deeper. My life becomes an open book to you. You can read now the language of my eyes.

"God did not gave you to me to be my best friend but HE gave me you to become MY TRUE FRIEND"

" No matter what the world will say...I will be your faithful friend

FAITHFUL FRIEND

"Try to read the message of the song"

Everyone knows you As a man of honor I am glad to know you Simply as a friend

You've always taken Time to be my brother And I'll be standing by you in the end

But I will never put you on a pedestal ,I thank the Lord for everything you do

I'll be there to pray for you and for the ones you love , I believe that He will finish all He's started in you

I will be an open,Door that you can count on : Anywhere you are, Anywhere you've been

I will be an honest, Heart you can depend on :I will be your faithful friend.

I am one of many, Whose path has been made clearer

By the light you've carried faithfully, As a warrior and a child

God has used you greatly, To encourage and inspire

You've remained a true friend all the while

So I will never put you on a pedestal, Cause we both know all the glory is the Lord's

And I'll be there to pray that He will keep you by His grace, And I always will remind you to be seeking His face 

I will be an open, Door that you can count on: Anywhere you are, Anywhere you've been

I will be an honest, Heart you can depend on, I will be a faithful friend

Should it ever come your time to mourn,I will weep with you

And every single time you win, I'm celebrating, too

Oh, I will celebrate with you…

I will be an open, Door that you can count on, Anywhere you are,Anywhere you've been

I will be an honest, Heart you can depend on, I will be a faithful friend

I will be faithful, I will be a faithful friend.

In our journey to life we met diffident kind of persons that has unique character. We build the friendship. And Friendship has a value. The value of friendship bares expectations, concern, time, and LOVE. We cannot blame other people to expect something from us if he or she valued of friendship that has been built in in their heart. I understand the feelings of our friend i also understand your feeling towards her.

Yes if i will not expect I will not be hurt....that would mean to other that ": i will not be hurt because you have no value to me?... Other people expect too much because we let them feel the love and care.

This is just my thoughts about the topics that we had last night... Hope you will not get mad. 
Would you be happy that your friends will not expect something from you or Expect too much because they care for you?


Dont worry I will not expect to much..But Trust ? .. I do

Calderetang baka by ABI

No wonder why i have a beefy body right now.... yes because of food. I can say to myself that sometimes " voracious " hehehehe..

Abi my co-teacher and friend cooked me a calderetang baka... It was a very delicious food... MASIRAMON heheheheh

Thank you ABI.. pwede ka nang mag asawa

Sometimes

Sometimes I feel like you are my friend................................... and sometimes you let me feel i am very special...................., sometimes I feel like we are more than friends and sometimes, I feel like we’re strangers.

Motivated students

I thought that this day would be boring to the two sections section K and H... Since we are in the explore of the teaching sequence, I used games for checking of previous knowledge of my students.. a simple quiz bee format i didn't expect that class will participate in the said activities.. I am very happy for their participation..

In II-H i used the think pair strategies again active participation was the result of the activities... I hope that the lesson for this third quarter will go on smoothly and become easier and for the students.. Thank God every time I see the interest of the students to learn I am inspired to teach... I am happy that i am a teacher.